This song has a special place in my heart. It has been used
in both “King’s Theatre” presentations of “Esther-Ordinary Faith,” the first
production Anna directed back in 2005, along with the more recent performance
last summer. (In fact, the picture at the top of this blog is from last summer's version of "Esther.") In the musical, Esther dances to or sings the song as she
contemplates the task ahead of her… the task that only she can complete. Over
the last 7 years since the first “Esther-Ordinary Faith” production, that song
has challenged me every time I take a moment to think about it.
“Now, all I have is
now
To be faithful, to be
holy
And to shine, lighting
up the darkness
Right now I really
have no choice
But to voice the
truth to the nations
a generation looking
for God!
For such a time as
this/ I was placed upon the earth
To hear the voice of
God/ and do His will, whatever it is.
For such a time as
this/ for now and all the days He gives
I am here! I am here!
And I am his/ For such a time as this
Can’t change what’s
happened till now
But we can change what will be
By living holiness
So that the world may see Jesus!”
Right now, God has placed me in the position to help
administrate some of "The King's Praise Ballet" as Anna "moves
on". Along with about 6 other girls, I face the task of replacing my amazing
teacher and director. We have many varied interests and goals for our lives,
from missions to film-making to music to college...but right now, God has put us
here. Right now, our duty is to be the best teachers, choreographers,
seamstresses, administrators, and washers
of mirrors that we can be. It's been amazing to see how for each task, there was
someone perfectly suited for and trained in that area. (Aside from the mirror
washing. That just sort of happens as it happens.)
We're all still in high school. We all still have things to
learn. For me, humility, gentleness, and time management are areas that need
work. But as we go about our tasks, as we face challenges in teaching 4 year
olds, or struggle to keep our priorities straight so we have time to choreograph,
God teaches us to depend on Him for our strength, to please Him in the
smallest, most tedious, or uninteresting detail.
For such a time as this, He has
placed me here. He has given me
responsibilities and duties and opportunities to glorify Him. I often forget
that. I often forget that the everyday things, even sweeping the kitchen floor
and solving physics problems so I can get on to "more important
things", are important. God's will for me is to do everything as if I were
doing it for Him. That doesn't just go for the final ballet performances, or
playing music durng my church service. That means everything, every moment, right
now.
Jesus said,
"As long as it is day, we must do the work of Him who sent Me. Night is coming when no one can
work." (John 9:4)
I have a limited number of days. I don't know when my time
is up. "Now...all I have is now." I know what my job is. I know what
I need to do, right now. My choice is either to do it, and do it for God, or to
miss the opportunities He's given me.
Where has He placed you? Are you His? Are you ready and
willing to do His will, whatever it is? He has placed you exactly where you are
with the gifts and abilities you have, for such a time as this.